Tuesday, November 27, 2007
this feels exactly like O's two years ago! when you're studying, you fantasize about what's going to happen after the papers and when the papers are really over, i don't exactly feel that liberated and happy and carefree etc... ok of course i do feel less stressed, but shopping everyday isn't that meaningful is it? i'm determined to find meaningful things to do after my family holiday :) yep will be gone from 5-11th dec~
yay quite glad i'm more or less done with shopping for prom! bought a dress that isn't that elegant, more of the casual kind which i think people will actually wear on normal days out but argh, shall not worry about it anymore :D and FINALLY got slippers which had my size!! another thing worth rejoicing lol! is size 7 feet really that big? isn't right?! SAY NO!
haha. so now i shall TRY to keep myself at home to study for JLPT 1 =X really think i'll fail but nvm, at least i'll get to see how the paper's like and PASS with flying colours NEXT YEAR! unless some miracle happens and i pass this one hehhehheh :D:D:D
jya ne!
Im happy @ {6:09 PM}
Sunday, November 18, 2007
look what am i doing here! i'm supposed to be studying for my last paper lol...
anyway i still sadly can't get over all my lousy papers. i really don't know how i did for everything, but to me, i didn't do my best. seriously. left the exam hall after EVERY paper thinking "oh i should have written this" and "oh i should have written that". rahh. the info is in there sitting somewhere in my brain, but yet i didn't use it during the exam. WHY
another exam weakness of mine: not writing whatever i think it is but am not sure. don't know why but its just a part of me to not write something i think it'll be wrong. but i can tell you, in the end after checking with others, my thoughts were actually correct just that i wasn't too sure. look that's marks flying away for nothing! leaving blanks here and there when they could have fetched marks. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. the marker's not going to say "oh actually this candidate knows but didn't dare to write. let's award her marks" if only that could somehow happen.
that pretty sums up why i'm feeling terrible for everything. especially especially scared for math. my paper one! wasn't at my top performance during the paper. rather distracted somehow. what if i get a B *worries*
on another note, this last lap has really allowed me to gain knowledge, albeit the last minute-ness of it all. as in in just a few days amidst the As, i think i finally understood what's econs all about (don't laugh pls!) haha seriously. i don't know what i've been doing these 2 years during all the econs tutorials and lectures. yes i try to study for tests and exams, but econs just wasn't a part of me yet. so of course after all the studying for an exam, i'll just forget every single thing soon enough since they didn't make sense to me in the first place. and i almost wanted to give up on econs, but decided to give it one last try. and like 1 or 2 days before the econs paper, i finally understood what're all the macro policies about, all the firms' pricing strategies etc etc. of course it's too late to excel in the exam (it'll be a miracle if i or anyone did pls! 2 years work in 2 days! lol) but its a personal achievement :) yes i'll finally understand what's in the economists and money section of the straits times YAY. FINALLY :D
just ytd, my mum and i were randomly talking about my future. i'll probably be studying here [but the whole world's flying overseas! :(] haha and my mum said unexpected things always happen. maybe here i am complaining that i can't do econs these 2 years in jc, but i might end up being an economist! LOL. and write econs textbooks, help companies strategise etc etc and we had a good laugh. plus we were laughing over my econs tchr's reaction when she sees my books on sale LOL!!!
and somehow, i'm actually STARTING to like studying >.< of course, i'll be looking forward to all the activities after As, but i might miss studying too...
after As!! :):):) haven't really thought about it yet, but as for now i want to: meet up with friends!! finally can go out with family during weekends, teach at uh some sec school (whoops i forgot what it is) with fishie, holiday.... oh no can't think already. is it this pathetic? haha. oh do cip...basically just keep myself busy for the next 9 months :) one more: study for the upcoming jlpt exam HAHA
zannen dayo~~ it's the highest level and my chances of passing it is slim but i'll try! ;)
bye for now. back to nuclear, quantum, circular motion....
PHYSICS!!
Im happy @ {12:13 AM}
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
this's faster than i expected. just two more papers!
BUT sighs. been so disappointed these 3 days. 5 papers in a row and all were............
you can complete the sentence.
what with physics econs jap and chem one after another morning and afternoon. switch from subject to subject until @_@ nope it should be seeing stars instead *_*
really really worried. what happened to my 2 yrs of studying....? esp math!!! i've always liked it but i think this round of crucial exam disappointed me somehow
Im happy @ {3:29 AM}
